I just need a tiny wee bit more attention. I try my best to lessen ur load, in coordinating, finances, choosing of items, keeping to budget. I push my limits for a bit more energy to help u while I can. 

All I ask for is a bit more of ur time an attention. For a longer cuddle and a deeper look. Is this too much to ask for or even this is taking too much of ur "fun" time? 

I hv been having nights of dreams. Or rather nightmares. 

Dreaming abt jane leaving, dreaming abt being rape multiple times. Maybe is a reflection of my stressed up period now. I don't get rape physically but those irritating ppl simply finds raping someone's mind fulfilling their own desire of being a boss. 

They feel damn proud when they 泼妇骂街. What's the point of dressing up and act like a babarian? I believe in Karma. They will and must get their deem Karma. 

The amount of coordination duties at work, for the house and mental preparation for child birth is taking a toll on me. 

My poor boy is under the weather. 

Think this is too much for for us to handle at one time. We both need a rest. 

I woke up telling syl abt my dream and that u r still leaving. In my dream I became angry. I hated the person who rec u this thing. Then in the u seem to b sad and chose to stay. 

Again then I woke up from my dream. This time is real. This time u r still leaving. But I really 不甘心. Wat is it that made u wanna leave now? 

Did I overload u? Is it my fault? I hate this guessing game. When I ask u, u only tear. 

I'm such a straightforward person tt I don know how to face and handle such situation. Teach me pls.