I may be bad tempered, very notti and fierce and ridiculous. I am a person like that. You would have seen or heard. I wan freedom, I can wake up with a bad day and feel irritated about that, I can show displeased thru my facial expression very easily n directly. You know i'm happy or not thru one look. I am that straightforward.
I may be playful and forget the time when i'm with my friends. I may be wilful and refuse to co operate with u. I may be difficult when i wan it my way. I may be ultra fierce when i find that u r too noisy. Basically i dun like NOISE. i'm totally fine with music, conversations, mumbling still fine. but not loud NOISE. i bet u know wat i meant.
as u can tell, my house is of a pretty tone down one. Not as lively as yours, of cos not with the help of the little ones. tt explain why i leave hse if they r at home. I HATE NOISE. My family dun SPEAK as clear n loud as yours. I know u can't help it. but there is nothing i can do either.
I dun mind a day feeling bad n tired. But definitely not LOUD debates in the morning.. n every morning is gg to KILL me. Of cos u can easily say that is not ur fault. dun blame u. like i told u. dun claim credit when the rest haf something u like or good and then just dump them n stand as an individual when they haf been critisized. that shows how 'good n truthful' u have been.
definitely i'm not ALL blaming on u. I have been ignoring u, shouting at u. But often when i did shout, i had been tolerating the same question for a couple of time. since my patience is short changed here, i wud not have swallowed them n treat as nothing has happened. sorry for not able to do that. u always wan to find out wat's wrong with me, wan me to tell u wat is the problem. but in fact, when i tell u i'm tired n sick, stuffs like that, u wud Surely tell me it was me who had chosen to come back late, to slp late, u haf allowed me to slp n i did not tell u wat time to wake up. so u r not to b blame.
Of cos u are not so 'powerful' to wake me up within minutes if i dun wan to. Guess who? bet u wud haf got it. I'm not trying to discriminate or blame anyone here. I just wan to tell u, if we r gg to stay together. we r gg to haf a big problem in future. so u think abt it.
u haf to tolerate my nonsense for long term.
even if u can, i may not ba able to tolerate ur side of things for long.
n u can jolly well blame me for stating it so clear n put u in a difficult position. cos I can't take it anymore. even i was not ill treated and given respect. I just cannot take the type of mental stress n tension. u have been trained. so u think abt it.