Many say it is the beginning of a new life. Others say it is the graveyard of your relationship.

I say is both.

To the couple, it is indeed a beginning of a new life, a new lifestyle that you can dictate.

To the newly wed, marriage is a graveyard of 'relationships'. To manage not just you and me but to manage many more related relationships, including your parents, grandparents, aunties, uncles.. not directly related but somehow or rather you will know or have to know.

esp when is family of being 'fair or unfair' and with a double standard.

I know, life is never fair, has never been and will never be.

One should never expect to be treated like one of them.

One should know that you are expected to do more than them and be extra respectful.

One should obey their rules and do not expect they know your rules.

One should be expected to help the communication within members in the house.

sounds like worse than a slave?

The good part, house work are taken care of.

but to me, is not a good deal. I am a mental slave and that is not me. I am someone if you treat me well, I treat you doubly well. If you treat me like air, I will withdraw away.

That's what i'm doing now.

But i know, it hurts him a lot. It pains him to realise that there's nothing he can do, also putting him in a difficult situation, worry him that I'm reconsidering this marriage.

is only been 6 months into the marriage and is stripping us of energy and patience.

is only been 6 months into the marriage and I'm thinking if it was really a suitable option in the first place and if we should put a halt to it before any kids planning / accident.

is only been 6 months into the marriage and I feel like leaving.

like many other times i've said, since the day i signed the papers, there is not place where i call home.

Is now my mom's home or bryan's place. I don't have a home, not even the one i was familiar for 10 + years.

From the day i signed the papers, I am obliged to serve as a slave to the new house, the new husband, the future child bearing machine. Those are the hidden words in the blessings.

No one told me these.

Much as i'm all ready to be a wife, to take care of my own family, to make sure my husband is well taken care of, to take responsibility for the new family, I am definitely not prepared to be a obedience DIL who simply take instructions.

I am of cos not willing to take weird humiliations like being treated as a alien or some inauspicious person in the house.

Tell me, which girl is prepared for that?