The separation anxiety seems to only last 2 days. Once u hv ur own night out, I don seem impt anymore.

I look forward to call u everyday, but seems like u r no longer looking forward to my calls.

My questions on ur whereabouts seems frustrating to u when u avoided my qn.

Why is it that you don hv the guts to tell me? To tell me that u hv broken ur promise, once again?

I don wan to spoil the trip, the mood of being overseas, empathize the fact that u r facing resignation alone. But the thought of it is simply killing me and our baby. I cannot shake off images that keeps flashing in my mind at every possible moments.

If this habit to be kicked off is too much of me to ask, please let's my child be pardon from the shame and we part peacefully.

writtern @12/22/2012 11:32:00 pm

writtern @12/22/2012 10:51:00 am

Spent 12 hrs travelling to this lil island and after 1 day of recuperating, I'm laying next to the pool and beach, on a huge hammock, looking at the crescent moon, dozing off and missing the touch of ur hand, ur hold and hugs.

Reminds me a lot about Maldives here, laughter and warmth from ur companion.

Knowing u r having a difficult time at work makes me guilty of enjoyment. But I still send u pics, wanting to share every moment with u. Looking at the same sun and moon, just to feel a lil closer to u.

Lil rascal had been good today. Other than the constipation, I rarely feel nausea with the fresh air and good food. Sleepiness is acting like a food coma aft every meal. Need a solution when I go back to work.

writtern @12/18/2012 06:28:00 pm

The app says I should hv a pregnancy diary. I think so too.

Every since the day I'm confirmed, I hv been showered with blessings. I m very happy.

Maybe is mother instinct or what, somehow I'm more sensitive and wary of ppl. Becoming judgemenntal, yet trying hard to remind myself not to be the kind of mommy that I complain about.

Baby should be about 6 weeks now and I'm feeling like a kangaroo, carrying a fluid pouch. I feel it being squashed when I squat down, feel it bouncing when I jumped or skipped. I'm beginning to accept this alien part of me, convinced that it is a new life created by you and me.

I still can't believe we did it! I really wan to slow down and enjoy every moment of this 8 months, noting everything I could.

My child may one day grow and leave my side, but now I know, a mommy always rem single little things about their baby no matter how old they are.

writtern @12/13/2012 09:53:00 am

自以为是的你，在故几你的面子上，亲自赶走自己的儿子、媳妇和孙子。

在家中的种种限制、规则，让人不管是否有没有照着办，都不顺你意。和你是互相利用，不用我时，刻刻不顺你心。

今天我们一家三口，连夜搬出去，不奢望你会要照顾好我们的孩子。但希望你会觉悟。你并非全能，也非超人，每样事都可以商量，改进个。不要永远让别人只是跟着你的方程式走。

writtern @12/10/2012 12:24:00 am

All the symptoms similar to menses, yet also similar to pregnancy.

I somehow believe tt I could b pregnant. Feeling a bag of fluid bouncing when I run or jump, the occasional emo moments, short temperaments, cravings...

I read many forum tt they cannot detect pregnancy till much later. I'm anxious n scared. Anxious to know the result and scared tt I will b disappointed.

Wonder if u willingly wan to be with me to share this joy or disappointment.

writtern @12/05/2012 12:26:00 am