I was overjoyed ytd. Beginning to see hope in 'us' after so long. Appreciating ur effort to show me that u care abt 'us' and is willing to put 'us' in the first place. But today I know all these have been an illusion. U are still the selfish person, who is simply trying to make me conform to suit ur lifestyle and comfort. U never did try to understand what I'm suffering from and what I'm suppressed from.

Ever since our marriage, my tears never stopped. The qty is far more than my smiles. I don smile anymore. I m no longer carefree and lively. I don know what I want. All I m doing is wat u wan, u will listen to me and pleased for a while and then coax me to follow u.

This is not the life I want. I need to voice out. I need to live my life. I don't wanna conform. I don wanna live yr life just cause I love u.

I no longer trust ur words. I never shud hv. Ur empty promises. U promised nvr to make me go stay with u if I'm unwilling. U promised to nvr say things to make me accomodate to go bk to that place. When hv u kept ur promises?

So since u cannot keep to ur promises nor protect me frm future unjust, I'm sorry but I hv to voice out. From now on if I hv to follow any rules in that place, everybody follows. So mk sure ur mother knows her rules well enough before she implement more. If I've to respect the host territories, I want to b respected in my private space. Go tell ur mother not to read ppl letter nor poke her nose into every baggage I bring bk. If I hv to respect and address anyone in that house, everybody also hv to greet me in proper formality. So ur sister pls address me as sister in law instead of sister. I'm not that close to her and not blood related. N to think tt ur mother aso call me jie jie to ur sister. Such good disciplines she have. I will reply her Auntie if I hear that again.

These has been happening in the house when u were not there and yes I bear a grudge. From the preparation of wedding, from ur mom trying to dispense with the rituals of hair combing cos is too troublesome but insist on hving time n dates under auspicious timing, I hate her. For always having double standards and nurturing u to b like tt. I do not get used to this kind of unfair treatments. I will never get used.