some random pics.. haha.. but i like my eyes that night..
Thanks to xiaxue for intro-ing fake eyelashes.. for someone whose eyelash is as short as nothing. thanks to auntie jessi for putting it on for me the first time.. n i learnt to do it myself liao..



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I'm buried in piles of unknown knowledge.. when will i see the light again?

writtern @4/20/2006 09:26:00 pm

some things... some things that i want to talk about.

I have seen..
the most devoted Long distance relationship in Tariq & Lam
the most ga-rang courtship from Jeff
the most interesting things kindergarden children have shown me, they hugged me!
the most innovative thing i have made for baby
the most slack reading week i am leading
the most amount of sleepless nights for many (haha)
the most interesting jokes from d@n
the most corny way of dancing in MOS (so u think u can dance? dance like a medium)
the many boliao guys in clubs that tries to fix u in a relationship (duh?)
the most caring moment from my parents and my dad in his ultra polite birthday night
the number of friends i got back in my life and they do make a difference to it. now i live with lesser regrets

overall, i have seen not the best or the most but the significant few who crossed my narrow and not-so-meaningful life.

all the best to each and everyone.. of cos best of luck to those who needs it. But a reminder, nothing comes free w/o effort. remember, it is always the EFFORT.

writtern @4/16/2006 04:19:00 am

writtern @4/16/2006 04:03:00 am

Hey it is a trend.. every year u get a new year post, xmas post, birthdays posts, many ranting posts, stress posts.. bored posts, clubbing posts.. hai over n over.. just that everytime i tok more abt it or post more pic cos i'm just too lazy to type..

n this reflects how boring our lives are.. a boring routine tied strictly to the calendar, invented by human.. WE.

dun u agree as well? many a times we dun do things cos we want to.. we do it cos we are obliged to or think that we shud just follow the norm..

why shud we blend ourself into the norm, being a normal commoner..? does it make us feel less shy, more confident or more interesting as a person?

does staring into space something u wan to do most the time, not thinking of anything cos u have been thinking too much for it? then u wonder if u are wasting time and shud do something else which seems more constructive. but who define all those good or bad, constructive or not?

The society as a whole.

it is bad or unconstructive or something not acceptable cos it is simply not the NORM.

does gg to tertiary education make u any smarter? most of the time i dun understand the syllabus. i just pass it w/o much knowledge how i did it. i just aim to get my cert by paying sch fees faithfully and hoping even if i fail in marks, i get a pass in grades by the Bell or normal curve system. u can get 0 yet u pass.. amazing isn't it?

does gg to tertiary education equipped u with any lifelong skills? maybe yes, maybe no. some majors or modules do give u very good skills for survival.. but i dun think integration and groups can help me in surviving in this cruel world. they are essential when it comes to building or whatever. but some are just imaginary spaces which i dun know why they have it in the first place..

the highest possible reason is that some ppl try to be famous.. hence coming up with some theories and manage to convince other abt it.. hence making huge amt of money n publicity. that was a joke.

another more realistic reason cud be that it is used in computing to break codes and stuffs like that.

most of the time mathematicians are nt needed till such times.. meaning not all the time. n i just realised what kinda shit i got myself into by gg into this field.. meaning i may just be another graduate w/o being able to utilise what i learnt.

be another saleswoman, insurance agent, blah blah.. nothing related to math.

wanted to be a teacher. dream is moving further.. so many ppl is applying for teacher's award. i have given it up cos i passed the deadline in submitting my documents cos i cud not go to my sec sch in time to get my cca records.. hmm i didn't rem i had cca records. hai..

nvm..given up hope anyway.. gg to enter NIE myself.. hopefully. if not i'll just come out to work.. as a normal excutive..

entering into the society of norms..

what did schools taught us about critical thinking and creativity when we are gg to enter the boring world?

writtern @4/06/2006 01:33:00 pm

seems like i'm the only one that sees the stress and dun sense it.. haha
still happily working and slping my ass off...
still relax abt the piling amt of work n undone tutorials..
when will i reach the past years papers? probably never..

think my cap is gg to drop.. trying veyr hard to maintain but simply no discipline n too much work.. modules are so TOUGH nowadays.. almost alien to me.. hai...

nvm.. shut up and go to work now!

writtern @4/05/2006 02:29:00 pm

Network marketing is something that will indirectly break u of from ur family if u become obessed with it.. ie the devil

the devil teach u to suck blood out of ur family, relatives and friends.

the devil claim to have the medicine to cure whatever problem u have but never works wonder unless u follow up with other things, claim to have a grp of supporting devils to be ur frds anytime u are in trouble or down, claim to be happy meeting u but they may actually hate u n try to snatch ur sales anytime.

Products are just like any product on the market. eg slimming product, if u dun control ur diet or drink tons of water to make urself feel full, wud u have good skin n slim down at the same time? it works exactly like extrim n xando.. they may have some effects, but i feel it is the water that works. water is cheap...

consistent seminars not to teach u new things abt products or work.. but motivational ones to keep u with the co so that they can suck u even drier..

how much do u earn from them as compared to how much they earn from u? u can have tons of savings.. bet with u that it is gone within 3 months after u join them.. it can even be more addictive than gambling..

let me show u what i meant that the co earns everything from u..

Let me elaborate: Basically u pay to try the products urself, then u persuade urself that it is useful, then u persuade ur family to buy from u to start u off like insurance. But this one is u cannot go out of ur family and frds circle for most ppl.. at least insurance got roadshows and if reliable brands get recommendations volunteerly.
ok not to deviate, then the commission u earned is assumed say 10% of every sale u make, another 20 % or the total sales from the team may go to the leaders, then a higher percent goes to the manager and the heirachy goes up.. ultimately all goes to the SUCESSFUL directors. understand?

writtern @4/03/2006 07:51:00 pm