He say i m drunk.. on a glass of beer.. am i?
i just feel so lousy.. feeling the extreme side of emotions..
Leave me.. all those who loves/loved me leave me..
myabe i didn't keep them.. maybe i dun love them..
i'm asking for it... now i say Leave me..
let me be this lonely pauper of love
living on this merciless earth for the pathetic roots of all evil
I cried.. more than 1 time..
i dried my tears.. cos my frd told me to cool myself..
i stoned.. for dun know how long..
listening to anymore things that just does not fit makes me irritated
i wan exactly answers.. nothing to infinity or approximately.. Exact is the key
I ask him how much u love me?
He said' a lot.. more than i can calculate'
As a mathematician.. tt's an indefined ans..
I'm just too logical..
so i need time to be illogical and nonsensical..
hence i often have tantrums.. to be wilful
I dun feel good..
I miss myself... where are u Christine or even Meiting?
i lost myself.. to someone/ somewhere.. is that such things?
Did u catch me along the way?
return me to me..
tears dry up... eyes droop tired..
i'm still so awake... insomia he said
i dun wan to look so happening.. when on the inside i feel tired and empty
i dun wan to look glam when actualli i m nothing but an empty shell
i dun wan to gif ppl the impression i'm strong n special when i'm just plain innocent when i face ppl
stress me up..
let me break...
i nid to be free..
set me free..
age is catching up on me...
yet i have to mix with younger ppl.. n behave like them to blend in
how long can i sustain in tis vicious cycle?
how long can he sustain from my numerous unreasonable mood swings like this?
i love u..
is that all we can say?
i'm a person of actions more than words..
words make me happy n touched..
actions make me love u..
Love is such a diverse theme
i love everyone..
but does everyone loves me?
timing is impt.. luck is too
i'm dazing..
i wanna see the fireflies..
i wan to go dating..
to have some coffee..
watch a movie...
go shopping like a bitch
call him at night to tell him i missed him since he left my place..
why am i working my ass off for moo lahs now?
trying to get us to stay like a couple under one roof..
how long have we not properly date?
and allow all the married couple stuffs to bother us
like cooking, laundry, grocery, sharing a study table, a bed
i said i nid some love..
heavy books is all u said
i cried again..
for no reason when i type n look at a electonic monitor
i weigh..
somehow staying together got us physically closer.. but emotionally further
somehow 'i love u' does not mean that impt to me..